Tuesday, 9 April 2019

Oh Look, Another Note!

Hey readers!
If you've noticed my missing posts, I'm so sorry. I made all these posts ahead of time so even if I had a spiral reaction saying goodbye to Zeus, y'all wouldn't lose out on contact. But I didn't set everything to the scheduler because I'm a total what-if worrier. And that's where the fail came in. My depression took over and set up shop and I didn't schedule things or worse, I tried to completely rewrite my 'garbage' before posting and then it actually was, in fact, garbage. I'd like to say that this was momentary depression, but I've been clinically diagnosed with it since I was 6. It's here to stay, and I'm pretty good at keeping on top of it but sometimes, when I'm having a bad time of it, the depression gets the upper hand.
I was raised in the time where it wasn't okay to talk about this, so typing all of this is filling me with dread, but I love my blog and I hate that I let things get off rails last week. I'll be playing catch up some way, some how in a way that shouldn't mess with my schedule too badly. And I'll be relying on my Hootsuite to cover for me even though I don't trust it. I am such a luddite. But with this Friday being my Dark Day, I am going to be relying heavily on my scheduling platform and my drafts that I've been hiding away. This is the 6th anniversary of losing my boy so I don't deal well with it.
Just drown me in books, we'll get through this! Anyways, this is just a note to say I'm not disappearing into the medical centre, my health isn't going downhill again, my head's just getting in the way a bit, but I'm here and still going. No worries!
Until next time, have a happily ever after!

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